2011 has been a nightmare , last night , my nerves got the better of and I came to terems that I’m going to have to face a situation head on.
I’m more than nervous about returning to a place I called ‘ Home ‘.
The place I used to go to to get away , has now become a place that’s tainted due to a life instance.
I’ve never been this alone with my thoughts in my life , sometimes I think should I even consider going back at all because I know I’ll be ill for a while before heading out , I need to kill this feeling.
The way I view it now is , I did not deserve her , I deserved something far better .
Not one email of any explanation has ever been made to me.